A Letter To Myself

Last night, I watched an old video that my dad recorded back when I was 4 years old. I've never seen such a happy, hyper, crazy kid in my life. This had me thinking for a while. I think I would definitely be more fun to hangout back then than I am right now.
If I could write a letter to myself, I think it would go something like this..

First, I would prove that its really me by saying all the secrets.
1. since i couldn't go to the bathroom by myself, i once pooped in my grandma's closet and wiped it all over her wall thinking that it would dry and dissolve after awhile. I blamed it on my cousin who was just a year younger than me. she got in a big trouble and had to clean it with my grndma. i was glad that i was so smart.
2. i had a crush on one of my friend's mom for the longest time. but shes all wrinkly and old now.
3. when i was older, probably about 7 or 8 years old, i stole my cousin's barbie, hid it under my bed and kissed it every night before bed. after kissing my parents goodnight.
4. when i was in 4th-5th grade, i tried my very first cigarette with my best pals, tom, paul, and luke. it was disgusting and i coughed like a little girl.

But then ofcourse, I would mention that secrets safe with me since I am me... even though i'm writing this for all to see.

Then I would warn myself a few things that might be harsh for me to deal with in the future.
1. santa is not real. but pretend like you believe in him as long as you can. i fooled my parents til i was in 6th grade.
2. when your 4, you will get a baby sister who is very cute. but she will annoy the hell out of you everyday after she turns 3.
3. mom will put a leash on your wrist everytime you go outside when you turn 5. after you successfully take the leash off while no ones watching at the mall, you will lose our parents for a few hours. but a sexy security lady will help you find them.
4. when your in secondary school, dont freak out when you hear our parents talking about moving to the states. i promise you that america is 10 times better than england. and you wont be in secondary school anymore, but you'll get to graduate elementary school again!
5. you will waste a year in college trying to figure out what your going to do for the rest of yourlife. take all the time you need.


Most importantly, I would tell myself to do my best in school and try to be a better person than i am right now.
There will be a lot of times where you will be stuck at a winding road, but you will do just fine. Try to find some goofy looking kids at kcpc. they will be your first real best friends and yall will start a dynasty


oh.. and be good to your mother. shes the best and knows everything.

If it was a dream

Some truths can be easy for your ears.
I was glad to hear the thunder for the first time of my life.
It woke me up early and saved a beautiful morning sun for the taking. Had a good full day with my boys.

After today, I knew I'd never see everything around me again. Peace, Indiana
Some truths can be a blade for your heart.

if this year was a dream, i dont think i could ask god for a better one.
I have reached for the highest stars, i have crawled out of the deepest grave of troubles, met all kinds of crazy people. i have fought and loved.
but i will wake up tomorrow in my very own room, back to where i was exactly a year ago. I won't be sad nor happy, but i know that i will remember this gift as the best dream of my life.

"you can do all things as long as you have the right air to breathe" - wise words from a decent friend

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Vinyl Records

I tried my best to put the calmest songs on my page so i can get serious everytime i hop on this j
Thanks Choitheboi

1887 - Edison made the first recording of a human voice ("mary had a little lamb") on the first tinfoil cylinder phonograph and this is where it all started.

cylinder wasn't good enough, so we came up with discs..
jazz was too lame, so we came up with rock..
magnetic tapes sucked so we came up with stereos..
cassette tapes skiped a lot, so cds took over for awhile. cds got scratched and had same problems. as cassettes... so we had a huge digital revolution and now, everyone has an ipod..

skipping all this history crap, George Neumann makes the illest sickest bestest condenser microphones for all kinds of media. From rock to rap, all professional studios have atleast 5 condenser mics.

Recently, people have been complaining about how songs are "too clean" and how it leaves out too many little details.

Thats like complaining to a waiter that your silverware is too shiny...

But if you listen to The Beatles or Led Zeppelin(any oldies), you can tell that the quality is not as clear. Basically, it sounds dirtier than today's music.. in a good way. So the media is about to change again but this time, we're going back to the vintage taste. Personally, I think its in human nature to be unsatisfied with present time and we're never going to find that perfect sound. That's why people like my dad still collects vinyls. You can hear true real quality music once you pop in Lynard Skynyrd - Black Betty on a vinyl player.

I think this can relate to a lot of us. Sometimes, we think we need to change to become a better person but we get so lost in that idea of becoming someone else, and somehow forget how good we used to be in the past(childhood).

Anyways, I had a dream a few days ago and I was stuck in a world where everyone was so pure and childish. No matter where I was, I knew I was safe and happy. Kind of like that one movie called The Invention of Lying. I was freaking out at first, but I became really comfortable with having everyone so strangely good to each other. Ended up waking up and being pissed off.

That's why I'm staying home, starving, finishing up this random ass post. I know its never going to happen, but lets try to kick it old school and go back to vinyls and be pure again.